Wednesday 29/10/2008

Still asking why I'm still awake right?
It's 2:30am in the morning.
I'm supposed to sleep already.
But I just can't sleep.
Something still running across my mind.

What I feel now?
Remorse? Hatred? Love? Miss?
Tell me please.
I can't even tell myself what I feel now.
I tried to be calm, as calm as possible when I'm with you.
I don't want you to worry so much about me.
I just want you to concentrate in your studies.

I received a sms this morning while I was sms - ing with HER.
The sender showed up - " Nicholas ".
I was like so shocked and touched actually.
Really touched...
I was actually driving when I received the message.
I stopped my car beside the road because I was unable to continue driving at that moment.

Nicholas is my friend since Primary 1.
We have been friends for 13 years already.
Until the day I left SMK Methodist, Sibu, we are still friends...
I still remember him...
He's really a good friend.
He is the guy who used to sit beside me in class.
I still remember we used to laugh like hell in the class.
I still remember he's the one who taught me a lot of things.
I still remember that we used to punch each other on our arms. ( He punched me 10 times, I punched him 1 time ONLY. And ended up both of us can barely use the energy from our arms to lift up even a pen and do our homework. )
I still remember I like to purposely disturb him and end up kena " belasah " teruk by him.
I still remember the burger he gave me on the last few days in school.
I still remember both of us are damn blur-blur when sitting together in the class.
I still remember Ms. Ng nicknamed him - Mr.Blur.
I still remember everything, like they just happened yesterday.
My tear's rolling down from my eyes down to the cheeks now.
I can't control it.

In fact, I miss Stanley and Sung Ming also.
We are always blur in the class.
Sometimes don't even know where's our souls went tho our bodies still there.
Our mind went somewhere else. ( That's called DAY-DREAMING. )
Three of us used to be the " eyes " of the class.
Because every subject's teachers always keep their eyes on three of us.
Soon we became - 三个人的故事 in the school.
I still remember that all the teachers always nagged and said that we are clever but we are just lazy.

p/s: I'm still trying my best to continue finishing this blog's post.


And I still remember the time when we ordered food from " TWINS " outside the school.
And there's a lot of prefects " guarding " there and yet we all can distract them easily. ( Not because they are stupid, because we are more clever and nimble than them. )
The scene was just like a reality show of 007.

And now both of them have couples dy, left me who is still single.
Sorry for those who don't understand chinese, you just have to translate this phrase yourself if you want to know what I wrote.



单身虽然是好，单身虽然是自由，可是有时难免还是会感到寂寞。
感觉不到幸福和快乐。什么是快乐？什么是幸福？
这些我现在都感觉不到了。


Oh man...
I miss the old times we spent together.
I still remember the time we enjoyed together.
It was so much fun.
But, 天下无不散的宴席。
We all have to separate one day and that's the fact.
And now everyone heading to different paths, their own paths....
In tear......
I really miss the old days......